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Literature Text
1: It started with you
You and your inability to shut up
What were we going to do?
You had a goofy-ass smile
And always spoke your mind
I could hear you away for miles
But we are from different realities
And I thought it wouldn’t matter
But my secret made it uneasy
It started with you
You and your inability to shut up
What were we going to do?
[If you ask me not to go
I’ll try to make your dreams so
But everyday gets harder
Harder than you’ll ever know
I tried to keep you safe and sound
But pain only comes from me being around
I can stop the collateral damage
If I was in the ground]
2: What would have happened if I never met you?
What stories wouldn’t exist?
Of all the things you made me do
You introduced me to the real world
With tears and laughter and art
We watched this friendship unfurled
And when you were near, I was lost
All my fears and silly worries
But at what cost?
What would have happened if I never met you?
What stories wouldn’t exist?
Of all the things you made me do
[If you ask me not to go
I’ll try to make your dreams so
But everyday gets harder
Harder than you’ll ever know
I tried to keep you safe and sound
But pain only comes from me being around
I can stop the collateral damage
If I am in the ground]
3: How could anyone ever hate you?
With your beautifully childish smile
That shoots me straight through
You’re an angel with rainbows
You must be filled with butterflies
To get me high from so low
Never lose yourself nor your friends
Like what I have to do
Because they will love you to no end
How could anyone ever hate you?
With your beautifully childish smile
That shoots me straight through
[If you ask me not to go
I’ll try to make your dreams so
But everyday gets harder
Harder than you’ll ever know
I tried to keep you safe and sound
But pain only comes from me being around
I can stop the collateral damage
If I was in the ground]
4: Remember the first time we met?
Both scared and both free-willed
One word from you and my heart was set
I swore I couldn’t hurt you
Not until the day I die
But that day had to come too
I love you and I can’t say goodbye
The words fall back into my throat
This is the end, just don’t ask why
I want to hold your hand
I’m scared and ready to jump
Knowing I will never land
[If you ask me not to go
I’ll try to make your dreams so
But everyday gets harder
Harder than you’ll ever know
I tried to keep you safe and sound
But pain only comes from me being around
I can stop the collateral damage
If I was in the ground]
I can stop the collateral damage. . .
I can stop. . .
I can’t stop. . .
Meaning for Collateral Damage:
It’s an apology song since words fail me when I try to speak. It’s about me four friends (reason behind the 3 verses and the bridge). I don’t like to admit it, but I do have anger issues and it gets bad. Whenever I get angry, I push everyone away and I get super depressed (as you could probably tell by the semi-bluntness of my rhyming). This time, though, it’s different. I got angry at my friend (he’s the first verse {basically, I love that child to death but sometimes I really want to kill him}) because he was being rude and obnoxious. Afterwards, I cried about it. Hell, he’s one of my best friends and if I lost him, I would lose many other great people.
I basically want to say to my friends is that I would say I’m sorry, but we all know it’s going to happen again. I know you all are angry with me and my clingyness and mothery ways and my anger issues. I’m pretty sure that you all would be happier without me dragging you down this hellhole. Ya’ll know I love you dearly, or less I wouldn’t stuck around, but it hurts to live. It hurts to know that I have hurt you all by things I can’t change about myself. Trust me, I’ve tried. Everyone is angry with me, I can tell. And I’m scared of goodbyes but they’re so near. I’m sorry I can’t change.